hi ppl. okay first. there is this huge freaking insect which i largely suspect that it is a roach in my kitchen, fortunately for me it poked his head out AFTER i did my dishes, so all i did was to run out. but i still havent throw the styrofoam box that contained the durian for supper. yup. durian for supper. with rice. and theres is this strong stench in my mouth now, which i think i will need to get mint refreshers for tmr's paper. right i think i'll make a trip down to the void deck later to dispose of it. well, anw, im here to update this on a whim. well, its the midyears now, jus finished a physics paper 3 which i hope i will do decently, considering that i slept at 3 am the previous day n had like 3.5 hours of sleep only. i should be asleep now, theres math at 8am later. right, a few days ago, or rather on sunday night, i was thinking about writing a book in the future. what i want to write about would be the ordinary lives people lead around the world. that thought kinda occurred to me when i was walking home, looking at people. looking at an old man, i wonder did he regret anything he has done in the past? looking at the children at the playground, i was thinking 20 years later, what will they see themselves as? a typical working adult, drawing a fixed salary, or perhaps an odd job man, living on the bits and pieces of work they managed to find? or will they make a difference in people's lives? thats just a brief idea, which i will certainly consider in the future, when im retired and whatnot. perhaps go traveling with my partner. :D that will be cool. interviewing the farmers in Thailand, going to Silicon Valley to talk to those tech whiz.
spent a good solid 2 hours reading GivesMeHope and LoveGivesMeHope and 6 Billion Secrets. and im feeling hopeful. no pun intended. GMH and LGMH recounts various touching stories that could just be happening around the corner. im not exaggerating, but many on the sites have claimed that reading this saved their lives. its all actually about the small actions that people do, small things that touched the hearts. 6 billion secrets is actually a much more saddening website, where people reveal their secrets, retaining their anonymity. u read about pessimistic stuff, which i must admit, im guilty of some. you actually get to vote on the upcoming secrets, which links me to another thing i read there. there was this girl, after reading the secrets on the website, she went and voted for all the secrets she found. she said, and i quote :"When I vote on upcoming secrets, I say yes to all, simply because I feel no one should keep anything locked up inside. Even if I never meet you, I'm sorry for your troubles and just keep looking forward, tomorrow is a new day."
sometimes i realise im a bit too straightforward here, just typing anything random, like the roach up there or the sofa a few post ago. but that just me i guess? and i somehow feel like within a post, its very difficult to follow me cos things tjust jump here n there. but thats how my brain works. backtracking, reading GMH and LGMH, makes me feel like im not doing enough. i mean i as a person in general, would like to see the world a much happier place, with more laughter, and hope. well, i suppose thats part of my mantra of being a magician now, to make people happy. i somehow believe that this world will be a better place with happier people. well i know im reiterating my point, but thats how the words come out. cant help it. my gp teacher says i ramble on too much. and now, people are getting emo around me. and i feel as though im the only happyfruit around. lol that was a random phrase. i supposed time and tide will heal all wounds. but still..... i really dont know what to say.
alright its 2am now, and i should really go to sleep. math tmr and i must should get an A to not disappoint others. also, i dont think i should make this an emo post. ciao and nites ppl.
oh before i forget, i should leave u guys with the links.
http://www.sixbillionsecrets.com/
u can link to the others at the top.
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